It's been a long time since I've been on and I've missed this so very much. It's amazing how we take love for granted..and then when it's gone, we can't remember how we lost it in the first place and have absolutely no idea how to get it back.  My first love is writing. It's never let me down and no matter how many times I leave, my pen is always waiting there patiently for me to return.  He exists for me, and I take him for granted. So I've decided to start something new...the Bible says that we are all blessed with gifts but if we refuse to use them, they may be lost forever [paraphrased]. Therefore, I've decided to return to my first love and to never leave him again...with the hopes that he'll turn his back to the wind of the past and trust that I'll be here with him forever.